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Emo Coaster

Today has been an emotional rollercoaster. These are the days that I’m glad only visit few and far between.

Work was same of course. Dealt with residents, co-workers, vendors and my boss again as she’s returned from her 2 day vacation (the woman seriously loves work way too much.) Because I’m a morning owl and prefer to finish the days work as soon as I’m done with my morning ritual of hot chocolate with the Seattle Times, I’m normally done with everything by 12. Today was no different. Finished the task and hopped on Facebook which is my new favorite pass time :)

One of the first things I saw upon logging in was my girlfriend Leigh’s status. It said something to the effect of “Leigh hopes that God has a plan for her life.” Because I know what it feels like to have questions about God, life and everything in general, I left her a little nugget of encouragement: a suggestion to read one of my favorite passages of scripture Jeremiah 9:11-15. She responded by crying and saying that she was feeling strangely emotional this morning. That really excited me as Leigh has been on my list of people that I pray comes to know God in a real way, for a very long time!

Well lo and behold, her jerk of a baby’s father comes online and starts talking a whole bunch of nonsense about how we’re only trying to persuade Leigh to come to our “side” so we can swindle her for her money and get her to join our “church” so we make a personal profit off of her …. like I said .. he was talking a whole bunch of nonsense. Because I absolutely abhor stereotypes, especially when it comes to my faith I couldn’t pass up the opportunity and felt the need to refute his position.

To make a long story short, he’s one of those people who are angry and bitter at life because of his situation and in turn, feels it necessary to be an ass (pardon my language) to everyone - just because. He’s also one of those know it all types who uses big words in hopes of sounding persuasive when in all actuality he looks like an even bigger fool since he uses the words in incorrect contexts. I know, ouch right. I just had to give it to him ;)

So in the back of my mind, while debating this foolishness, I felt like God was reminding me to check on Leigh, after all, this all began as an encouragement to  her! I mean sure it was nice to make her dead beat bd eat his words, but it was really about Leigh and making sure I used that opportunity to make her aware of her God given purpose and plan. Unbeknowist to me, she was in class while Smarty Pants and I were debating and she checked her FB when she got out. She was not only extremely upset with his extremely rude comments regarding people who go to church but his attitude in general and she finally, after a million and one times, found the strength to tell him it was over for good.

Because I’ve known all along that she was too good for him (girl is not only tough as nails but she’s basically genius and has this incredible gift of writing!) this really made me happy because she is so deserving of a good man to love her and her beautiful baby girl London. And I was able to give her more scripture that I pray will really turn her heart and attentions towards seeking God first, her First Love.

That really made me happy then God did another really cool thing.

I started talking to a really good friend of mine, Sir Rankin and during our FB chat session, I had this really clear word to give him from God. This rocked me hardcore, so much so I had goosebumps because I had never had a vision that clear for someone else! Well in boldness I told him what I felt the vision meant and explained it in detail and to my surprise, there was a delay in his response. I thought maybe he had stepped away without warning or something until he messaged me - he had fallen out of his seat in the Spirit! It was insane because he always kidds me about the power of my words and how he’s affected and it actually happened! That was such great edification for the both of us. For me it was proof that I’m not dellusional and I do hear God :) Lol. For him it was confirmation that he’s awesome and has so much in store for his future!

Whew! All of that, over Facebook in about an hours time. That was definitely the high of my day. And I was feeling that high …. until I got home.

My eldest Auntie is moving out which really wouldn’t effect me that much but she’s taking my cousin Janta. Janta and I have lived together all our lives (She’s 15 and I’m 21) and I’ve never once considered her just a cousin, we might as well be from the same womb.

My Auntie and my Mom have been at odds since we’ve moved into this house, all because my Auntie is old and set in her stubborn ways. She doesn’t realize that her poor decisions have left this entire family in a bind, more noteably her daughter and my younger sister and I.

Because this move comes on the toes of many disagreements, there has been no peace. It’s hard to lose the ones you love but it’s even more difficult when the parting is filled with such animosity and turmoil.

About 30 minutes ago, we had a pretty heated arguement where she said things that really caused my heart to hurt. I hate this division mostly because it’s for superficial, stupid reasons and because it could’ve all been prevented.

From high’s to lows, I’m riding on what seems like a never ending rollercoaster. I guess that’s one of the great lessons of life: learning how to take the good with the bad.